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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 19:22:31 GMT

Hey back again! Well last wed i made my first confession in church, cuz im in RCIA class. Man was i nervous before going into "the box" lol. And when I did go in there I almost fell needless to say lol. But as i started talking and confessing sins and things i needed to get off my chest that were bothering me and stress too..i started to feel so much better..like a weight had been lifted. I know this will sound very corny but it was emotional for me. I cried at one point because of a certain subject I was telling the father about. And on the 26th i believe...neway this saturday i make my communion and in may i go to some cathedral down town and make my confirmation and ill be all done with RCIA. I will be a confirmed catholic. I was baptized catholic i just never did the communion and confirmation stuff. But soon i will be all done. The only reason i did this is cuz i wanna be fully catholic and i want to be able to get married in a catholic church. ttyl .

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 16:41:07 GMT

Well last night was a blast...NOT!!! What started out as a perfect night of going to hang out at billys dads turned into a disaster in a manner of minutes. Well me and billy and phil and lynn wanted to go to bills dads to chyll..only he was there when we got there. So we or should i say phil decided "lets go to sams" and i have to say i didnt want to go to her house...newhere but there im not to crazy about her. I even told billy and phil and lynn b4 we went out that if it came down to it i dont care if her house is the last resort i dont wanna go there. But neway my feelins were dismissed as always. I cant tell phil and lynn what to do but billy knew how i felt..we coulda went somewhere else.. just us but NOOOO! We had to follow everyone else. So who do we run into on the way to sams kate and the gang. I was like O Shit! At first phil & kate were fine until anthony came round then the shit hit the fan. Kate ditched phil and followed anthony and Phil was instantly mad for the rest of the night. Then when we got to sams kate and every1 was there and the fightin continued. Phil went haywire and said some bad shyt but im not gonna say what or what happened..its not my place to say. But at that point i really wanted to leave sams hell i didnt want to be there in the 1st place. But billy didnt care so of course i got pissed. I was about to leave myself and he said wait and left with me. We fought all the way home and even at home. And its the next day and were both still upset. Well did i have a hell of a night or what. All this cuz bills dad didnt go to work. lol

Friday, March 11, 2005

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 17:12:25 GMT

Well back again and im still feeling very stressed out and at a dead end. I really need to talk to some1 that will understand. Well thats all I have to say for now.

Friday, March 11, 2005

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 00:14:07 GMT

Hey its been a while...I really need to get some stuff off my chest. I have a lot to say and no1 to say it to. Billy kinda nos but hes not a very good listener. I been going through so much these past few months..the months i havent written in here. Not only does it suck that my grandmom died but my one remaining grandmother starting fighting with me and my family for no reason and doesnt want ne part of us. And im serious when i said there was no reason. It hurts me so bad that the one grandmother that loved us and wanted to be with us died and the other one who is alive and can be with me and my sis and fam doesnt want to. Nd now my mom and dad have been fighting off and on..and seriously too. I have no job still and i have been looking and i cant find one. I have so much stress its not even funny. Me and billy had some serious fights. And also i found out if i get a job i lose my health coverage and that means i wont be able to pay for my epilepsy medication..and the job that i get i wont make enuff to pay for it. So its either get a job and lose my coverage or dont get a job and keep my coverage so i can get my medication. Im at a brick wall im so stressed out i have family money and health and relationship issues that typing them all out would take forever. Im at the end of my rope. I dont know what to do. If ne can help me with some suggestions please do through xanga or email me. drteeth692003@yahoo.com... bye bye

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Sun, 26 Dec 2004 23:46:21 GMT

Hello back again..well its been a lil over 1wk since my last entry. Well not much happened in the week. Christmas was ok, i mostly got everything i wanted and I cant wait til new years cuz im partying and i might march in the mummers parade im still not sure about that yet. And friday im going to the Gallery and to South street. Im also thinking of getting a tattoo. I dont know. If I get one it will be a fairy, a butterfly, angel or something else. Well thats all I have to say for now. TTYL.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 15:40:32 GMT

Well its been a while since I last entered anything, but not much really happened. I was sick, but im better now. I went job hunting but had no luck. I guess I will find work after the holidays. Today I am going to a party. My boyfriends cousin has this pollyanna every year. So I decided to go and try to have a little fun. Well thats it for now.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 21:02:01 GMT

Well its been six days since my last entry. I just havent been up to writing much thats why i waited so long to put in an entry. Plus I been busy job hunting and on top of everything I got a cold. I hate being sick. Miss ya grandmom. O and christmas is comming, I am so not prepared for that. Well thats all I have to say for now.

Friday, December 03, 2004

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 18:48:12 GMT

Well today is another day. Im not doing much but just chillen. Sunday is a big day though. Sunday at 10:00 mass me and my sister have to make our Rite of Acception into the church. Man am I gonna be nervous. But I'll worry when the day comes. I dont have much to say now. Maybe I'll be back later.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 20:23:14 GMT

Hey! Its been a couple days since my last entry. But im back again with more to write. Well my grandmoms funeral was on tuesday the 30th. I will always love and miss you grandmom.<3 Well Im upset and I really dont know what to say. Except we'll all meet again.

Monday, November 29, 2004

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 02:17:57 GMT

Well its been a day since my last entry. Things are a lil rough wat with my granny passing but it will smooth over. Tuesday is the funeral. Today I just went over my sisters house and chilled for a while and played with my nephew and chilled with my brother in law and my sis and her friend. I was at her house for a while then I went home. My day was ok, no biggie. Thats it for today.